I can't wait...

to get to heaven. = ] No... I'm not talking about suicide. Hehehe.. Dun worry. Cause if I do suicide, I wun be going to heaven at all. So, dun worry. I'm not talking about suiciding. I just... wanna get to heaven cause I got quite a lottttt of questions I wanna talk to Big Daddy about. So much questions. I still have not much answers for now.

"Is this God's will for me? Am I supposed to do it?"

"How would I know if wat I'm doing is His will?"

and much more actually. I've got lots of questions and I think I've written some of them down somewhere. Hmmm...

Choices... Why art thou so hard for me? T.T I can't decide. TT.TT

I recall watching a video clip from utube. That lady can't decide if to let Jesus be the one in control or not.
Jesus was like "U have to decide... Am I in control or not?"
and then her answer was like "I can't decide..."
Jesus smack her with the truth with "U just did... When u can't decide, u've already decided that u can't decide."



BUT, after the talk talk session with you, I think, I've found the answer already.

Hahahaha... Funny, actually. = ] It's pretty simple. Hahahaha..

I would not know, wat Big Daddy has in store for me. But I do know that whatever He has planned for me is for the bestest-est-est-EST already. = ] So, yes, waiting can be painful and hurtful but it's wat i can do. I thought about..

"If i wait too long, I might miss my chance... hmmmm..."

BUT all these waiting, is all part of His plans actually. His plans are certain and there's no wayyyy I can run from it. His will is PERFECT. And PERFECT means, there's no flaw or loophole, or mistake.

PERFECT

Perfect is His will. Hehehehe... This song suddenly pop-ed into my head. Hehehe..

Lil by lil, everyday
Lil by lil, everyway
Jesus, He's changing me. He's chaging me.
Since I made that turn about face
I've been walking in His grace
Jesus is changing me.

He's changing me
My precious Saviour
I'm not the same person that I used to be
Well, it's a slow going
But still, there's knowing (hehehe)
That someday, PERFECT i will be. = D

Call me childish... I dun mind... = ]

In conclusion, I'll wait. It was all planned already. I just have to follow His plans. How? Just by living each day to the fullest possible. = ]